From this time on

The goodness of waking up to the sweet crisp tweeting of birds atop the closest tree to my bedroom window....

Love it how you set the alarm, but nature awakens you at peace in this natural state of alertness before the bell goes off. Screw the alarm, it always makes waking up a chore. Next time I'll beat the alarm to it's beep.

Endeavor to be good to myself this time.
Limitations.
What are your limitations?
Principles.
What principles do you hold?

Do you abide by them at all costs?

Yes I will.

But without a trace of ugliness-
with grace and good cheer, live it out with conviction.

What's behind the closed door...

Complacency is a very dangerous word.
How do I juggle the peace that I have within with my strive for betterment?
I need divine intervention.

You know how dreams are placed in your mind for the very purpose of spuring you to fufill it.

For fear that a dream will be crushed, one stops dreaming. One locks it up and throws the key away, thinking that one will be safe, once and for all. No more heartbreak, no more misery, no more worries, life is much better without it, because if I don't try, I don't fail. Is this the safety we want in our lives?

I yearn, I search, I discover, I change, I wonder, I realize, I find, I keep.
I am tired. I lack persistence, I falter, I pick myself up.
And I go at it, head first. Once again. this world is a dangerous place, an exciting place, and if you don't try it out, you will forever be kept guessing. Healthy curiosity is what I want in my life. To discover what lies ahead....

I find the power in You

Wine, Music and Candles.
I dream, I float, I am in a world of my own.

Forget everything
nothing is real
Everything is fine
Nothing can bother me
I am strong
I am powerful
I have an Almighty watching over me
Tomorrow will be better than today
Yesterday has past
It doesn't exist no more
leave it behind
Find the spirit to overcome tomorrow
Be brave, Be bold, Be determined to make each day better than the last.


I am what I think myself to be, what can you say to bring me down? Nothing. I will not be bogged down by your insecurities, I will stand firm on my own. I can do it. God will help me if I ask, and I will seek and I shall find.

When I grow up...

... I will probably not want to be what I wished I was.

Never ever had I wished to be something else short of **name in lights** gorgeous, eyes, body, face... Now, I just wanna be plain, when you know what wonders you can add to achieve your desired effect. Wham! You can just about be anything you wish! So a blank canvas is all you need.

Young and impressionable once upon a time- Beauty, fame and fortune and ultimate happiness always seemed to belong together and Desire for a spot on the cover magazine almost killed the girl from within. Bam! upon realization that everything comes with a price, and a heavy one at that, you end up thinking... I'll rather not have what she has - so I can keep whatever I have that she doesn't - and stay providentially sane.

Har.
The child almost thought that one should always pick their occupation over careful consideration, that it would be what they'll be stuck with. For a lifetime. Phew, when it comes to education, you are only limited by your unwillingness to learn. Go back to school anytime! Make the switch and land yourself a new career! The possibilities are endless. Prestige? Nay! Over working yourself till extinction Vs time to do whatever your leisure and interest after labour AND procuring adequate finances to fulfill it? Give me the latter anytime!

If I should be a square and won't fit in the circle, I could cut so I'll fit (ouch!), or pragmatically, find a box and snuggle up nicely.

Repressed

Dependence has been a thing of the past.
Now that individualization has taken place, it brings about this strong sense of self worth and power.
The knowledge that everything can be done if you set your heart to it.
This is a revelation that empowers to a great extent.
Yet, man is not made to fly solo.
But wherein does one find the need, or perhaps, put it this way, what is the lure to conjugate?

Tis a mind boggling 180 degree attitude change has put my whole life into a different dimension, adapting a whole new take on what life is all about.

Suppose I can't make up my mind, what if... what if... well, one will not be likely to find out if one never tries.

Boldness. What a word. The word itself has so much grandeur to it.
I think of "boldness", then "impulsiveness" pops up on the other end of my mind.
Put it in another way, you could say that it is but spontaneity.
But how is it different from the recklessness of impulsiveness?
The dictionary serves up the explanation that being spontaneous means: without meditation, naturally occurring, unplanned and unconstrained.
Impulsiveness is a rash action, not preceded by thought.

So I ask again, then wherein lies the difference?

I am confused. God help me. I don't wish to be impetuous. Shucks, another synonym, complicating things a little further.

Free spirited as one is, It doesn't really bother whatever outcome this might bring, but will certainly strike one with guilt should things fall apart and bring sorrow to the one other.

Does the one that fit to a T really exist?

If one is looking for something that will last, one also fears that the durability will outlast the novelty sometime down the road, akin to a no-refund policy on a misfitted purchase, which is really, very easy to promise at first, but very hard to predict if there be any truth in it.

But one will be selfish to think that the window of opportunity be ever open till the day one makes up their very fickle mind- at long last. It's just not fair to the one in waiting. Is it?

Precisely because there is a future, there is cause for hesitation. If every moment was the last, why should there be anything stopping you from acting on your emotions? Events leading on from whatever we do will lead to consequences we shall have to bear. Can one put aside everything else to just concentrate on the situation alone? Afraid not. Many other elements come into play only after it has been formed.

Happiness is the result of the unconscious pursuit of it from walking the journey, then, I feel, the destination has no real value in it.

Perhaps waiting is still the best option for now. Better not let folly get in the way of rationality to spoil this serenity all now enjoy. If I want modification, at least I am in control. For all it's worth. At least not now.

Who is the one I see, staring straight back at me?

People say, your occupation is a reflection of yourself. It is your identity.
Is it really?

Who am I?

If I tell you that I work as a cleaner, how would you view me as a person?
Am I any less worthy to be present in your vicinity at any given time?

We've been inculcated to link several jobs to an esteemed status and others on a "blue collar" label as we think up lesser jobs to fill up the base of the hierarchy.

I ponder...
If jobs that seem to be easier to get into which do not require an advanced level of studies to undertake, does it mean that anybody at all can do the job well?

If a pyramid (which in this case is the order of hierarchy) is not built with a large, firm base, can it still be considered a pyramid and can we ever build it to the top? Then who, may I ask, can actually support the weight of the blocks at the top end of the structure?

If I think I have what it takes to do a certain job, I'll take it on. If I don't, I'll leave it to others who may be more capable to take on that responsibility.

Life is about knowing your strengths and realizing your limits.
Inspecting your deficiencies and looking at ways to change them for the better.
If you don't like what others are doing, ask yourself, could I do it better?
If you believe you have the inclination, the gift, the talent, the inspiration, then just do it. If not, accept it.
If there's a problem, solve it.
If you can't think of a solution, leave it.
If you just can't stand it, It's your personal problem.
But why let their problem be your problem?
What is your problem?

Let live. Place your focus on yourself and change the world the way you want it by doing something. God is a map, He can tell you the directions, but Hey, you gotta stand up and walk to your destination. Plain faith without action don't get you anywhere.

Life is a difficult journey, sometimes you look at a person and you wonder what it took for him/her to arrive at this moment in their life in one piece, that is, I think, quite a feat.

Be thankful you are alive, well, and in one piece. Really, that's all you need to live. So go, live it out, do what your heart tells you to. Take the words of others in your stride, they can talk, but they can force you not.

Be good to yourself.Cos nobody else can do it for you.

Revelling in my thoughts

Didn't manage to clinch any title, nor did I get to win any prizes, but boy I sure had the time of my life.

and that's all I need.

My oh my, it's the simple pleasure of being able to captivate audiences and be free to have the stage to just myself. Is BLISS.
So free, C'est si bon! Tell'ment tell'ment c'est bon!

Dance like no body's watching, sing like you want the world to hear, but knowing that their eyes' are on you.

Love it Love it Love it!!!

I wanna do it all over again!