I want to know what Love is

In the world of tennis, a nil score, is represented by ¨Love¨.
When one starts to keep a score, competition begins, calculations exist. Love, then, will cease.

It is not so much i can only give you what you deserve.
But how can you give something you never had?
A gifter must have the means to give.

No one deserves anything.
How are we to measure how one would be eligible for something enough for one to receive?

We are but humans, we are not omnipotent.
The only deliverer is God Himself.

What we have, all is His. He has the power and authority to choose what and to which He shall gift.

For I have received, I humbly give.
If I give with grudge, God knows my heart, then He would rather I not give.

Love has to be willing. When it does, it has an endless capacity of flow.
But when you try to snatch it out of someone, the giving stops, because you can never force someone to love you. Love is unconditional and is only justified by the extent as to which one is willing to offer.

I can never give you what you demand if what you want is what I have not.

I cannot, BUT GOD CAN.

Till there is no tomorrow

Ever did read a book and felt empty and somewhat sad just when you flipped though the very last page?
I did.
Perhaps that is what´s keeping me from finishing reading books.
The fear of having to end something.

Is it impossible to ever get to ever after?

Let me rephrase it:

With God,
Nothing is impossible.

Too great a measure to fathom

I used to be an under estimator.
Plainly put,I used to get tired of things pretty easily, being the ignorant and unmotivated girl i was.... nothing seemed to interest me any further after the initial spark of an encounter failed to ignite, which left me hanging out for another to pass my way.

Everyday was a search to find something even more exciting, even more tantalizing than the next.

Every enjoyment became a temporary high and I was like a girl on drugs, ever craving for more, but never getting enough.

Then one day, nothing seemed to matter anymore.
Enjoyment became an excess.
Laughter became too tiring for the facial muscles.
Goods became trash to be taken out.

Her life was cluttered by too much excesses.
So she made a decision to detach.

Detaching herself from worldly comforts, she immersed herself in the simplicities of life.
And much to her surprise, it actually made her joy fuller, and made her life so much easier.

Everything in balance.
Why the need to hog when one is truly all you need?

Looking up into the skies, she fixed her eyes on the one and only.
White noise drained away.
Nothing on earth seemed to matter too much anymore when she realized the comfort He gave.

He gave her adventure, with each life challenge.
He gave her courage to love and to protect.
He gave her Love which promises to last for eternity.
He showed her mercy when for every mistake she makes.
He gave her wisdom when she choose to seek.
He gave her clarity beyond her wildest imagination.
And gave her hope to face the unknown with anticipation.
He gave her courage to do all that she has been prepared to undertake.

most importantly,
He gave her EVERYTHING she needed.

He meted discipline in gentleness as long as she did´nt go too far.
She knows that He knows her inside out and any attempt in dishonesty will be futile, so she does´nt even go there.

She hopes to one day have the capacity to teach her children all that they need to know that will see them from strength to strength.

To know the master, and to appreciate His loveliness.
To seek and to serve.
For one alone can only do so little.
But together, we can give Him so much more!

Live the adventure He has set out for each of us in Joy and Love. Amen :)