Just what I needed most for now

Mary Poppins.
Undeniably a classic, a rerun on the player reminded me of something that I really had to put into my punny little not so bright brain of mine.

I have to say, it worked like magic. Helped heaps to make me realign relationships. The ones that we are blessed with but tend to horribly overlook.

Now tis what Bert replies to the children about their father.
I SO get it. After 24 years. NOW, I get it.

Let's sit down. You know, begging your pardon, but the one my heart goes out to is your father.
There he is in that cold, heartless bank day after day, hemmed in by mounds of cold, heartless
money. I don't like to see any living thing caged up.
They makes cages in all sizes and shapes, you know. Bank-shaped some of 'em, carpets and
all.
Look at it this way. You've got your mother to look after you. And
Mary Poppins, and Constable Jones and me. Who looks after your father? Tell me that. When
something terrible happens, what does he do? Fends for himself, he does. Who does he tell
about it? No one! Don't blab his troubles at home. He just pushes on at his job, uncomplaining
and alone and silent.
I only observe that a father can always do with a bit of help.

All because You believed

As I count my blessings, I count the people who willingly take time out to provide advice as one.
Itś amazing how no two people can ever have the same life experiences even though they may come from the same country or village. So there is always something different about how we come to form our current expectations in life shaped by the many events that lead up to our present.

Ever careful to respect where every person´s advice may have taken form, I still believe what I believe.

I choose to still hold on to what I believe.
Not what I think is right. But what I hold in my heart to believe in.

The tricky part on the receiving end of advice is that sometimes one cannot help but become very much muddled especially when the majority don´t seem to think much of your rationality influencing your would be decision.

Surely my Faith can sustain me.
Surely Godś ability is bigger than what I can imagine.
Surely He can work it out even when people think otherwise.
Surely if I call on His name, He will guide me and He will give me a future, Full of Hope, for my welfare, and not for woe.

Surely and steadily, I need not worry.

Because.
I BELIEVE.

Zombie state of life.

When I lead life as it is, on auto pilot, not consciously making an effort to think of my next step of action... I become a walking zombie.

I ask myself, is this what I want to become? With all that He has given me to achieve, is this what i really want to be? A carbohydrate draining walking machine without much use as to just take up space?

Itś like going to the doctorś.
Communication is key.
If they don know your symptoms, they won´t know whatś wrong with you.
If they have no idea what´s bothering you, they cannot treat you.
Sometimes, they give you a false assurance that everything will be fine. You really just need plenty of rest.

But you know your circumstances better than they do (or care to know).
So really, its all about knowing your options, and pushing for answers.
Nudge.
Nudge.
Too many times i´ve forgotten to ask and think that accepting their prognosis as it is is the best thing I can do.
No more.
I´ve learnt to nudge.

If its because I respect your capacity as a doctor, and I trust that you would know better to listen and provide me with whatever advice I need that I come so far to (even pay) to see you.

Forget that I even paid to see you.
Tell me why you became a doctor in the very first place.

God didńt say everything will be easy. Smooth, without glitch.
But itś the glitches that make one sit up and really think hard.
Why do I pursue the things that I pursue.
Do I really want this so much that I will use all that He has given me to overcome.
Barriers give way.
Mountains move.
Walls crumble.

Yet, if this doctor fails to meet the standards of competency, or never even tries hard enough.
At the very least, the patient can choose to go to another doctor.

So many times I´ve been fed up.
Now I´ve learnt to fully trust and let Him do the guiding.

Surely my God will want the only best for me.
Surely His best will be glad to do his best for Him.

Life is a battlefield.
Yet we have God´s full Armour for protection so we can fight.

Ephesians 6:10-13

I always thought I can glide though this life, unnoticed.
But by being unnoticed, is it really what He has set me out to be?
He has made me to be more than this. What am I hiding my God given abilities for?
Nothing good is ever easily achieved.
Its time I regained consciousness.
I CAN DO THIS.